Strange. I feel different than I did a week ago. About this time last week, my camera died and it will be at least a week, maybe two until I get it back. After getting over the initial panic, I disciplined myself to be more accepting of going awhile without it.
There can be no doubt that in the months since I first got a DSLR, I learned to look at the world very differently. I saw things I had not noticed before. I looked outward more and slowed my brain down to take in details I had previously skimmed over. I took more time to think about how the scene before me made me feel. And I learned to explore ways to convey those feelings to other people through the photos that I shared.
Now? I still look at the world that way, because it has become habit. But I can’t capture it and I can’t share it. If I had to characterize how I feel about it, I would say I have lost a part of my voice. I just have laryngitis for a couple weeks. It is not the end of the world or a hugely tragic thing. I will either get the D70 fixed or I will buy a new D80. I have the means to do either, for which I am very grateful.
And as I mentioned last week, if I gave in to impulse, I would have already replaced it, but I am being practical and patient. Practical and patient are no fun at all, but they do pay off in the end. At least that is what I told my kids when they were growing up.
I sure hope I knew what I was talking about.
It’s so hard to be without the good camera!
If your D70 can’t be fixed, will you send it to me so I can just hold it in my hand and pretend to have a cool camera? Then maybe I could change the way I look at things even with laryngitis. :)
Then again, I think the fun might wear off and the frustration of a broken camera would have me screaming until I got laryngitis…
Dilemmas. :)
sara
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I love and agree with your statement about being practical and patient is no fun, but pays off in the end:)
I know EXCATLY what you’re talking about. I see things very differently because of photography. It’s great to be able to share it with others! Good luck on being patient and/or getting that D80. lol.
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You will get your “voice” back.
Charles Stanley loves to take photograghs also. He goes out into the wilderness and captures amazing things.
He tells of a time when he knew God was telling him to sell all his cameras. He resisted for awhile but did finally obey and sold them. He was really heartbroken.
Then, through a series of events, he got his cameras back. He tells what he learned in his time in the “wilderness”.
So, you will no doubt learn something too. Just hang in there.
YR
LOL!! You knew what you were talking about. Was it the shutter pin?
I had the same frustration when my camera broke. It nearly killed me. I have the same frustration now, driving around my new city and not carting the giant camera bag everywhere. I see so much and want to photograph it! Hoping for a tiny purse camera for Christmas. :)
I got an idea!!!!
Run out and replace it NOW. Then when you get your camera back you can send one of them to me!
BRILLIANT!
I’m sooooo smart.
in all honesty though, I know what you mean about looking at things differently and I can imagine that if I weren’t able to shoot for a while I would feel same re: the optical laryngitis.
Earlier today when i read this, i opened the comment screen to reply. i then got up to quickly finish the dishes in the sink before my hisband came home for lunch and ended up goiung to the e r for i cut my hand on a glass. I cannot take pictures and i have a camera. you can take pictures but have no camera. which is worse, eh? wish u lvd closer, i’d lend you mine , , ,
I think I would feel same if I couldn’t word process. I’d hyperventilate.
Hope you get a working camera soon.